Welcome to the 5th Dimension

Intersecting Lives

Vibrating Minds.

One Decision Made

Changes Everything.

Maybe This Time

I'll Get it "Right."

But Who's to Say

Exactly Which Way?

Left, Right

Up, Down.

Parallel Universes

Take us RoUnDnRoUnD.

Journey back to Unconditional Love

I came to the realization this weekend, that my life mission is to embody, seek and live in the vibration of unconditional love. It sounds simple but the conscious journey from fear, back home to love, is the most complex, intricate, demanding experience I have had/ am currently having.

Waking up, REALLY waking up,  to the fact I am a drug addict alcoholic human being was similar to the experience of what I’d imagine it would be like when a character in the walking dead looks down at their arm and realizes they have been bit by a zombie. You have a small grace period where you can just accept the fact you are turning into a horrible monster, a zombie, or you look for a fucking ax and get help from those around you to chop your very own arm off so you’ll survive (or in my case end up back in a jail or in an institution).

Now that I'm sober, this bible verse has a whole new level of meaning to me.

Matthew 5:29 

"If your right eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell."

Every drug addicts' journey to the point of desperation looks different. But that feeling we all get, when we have reached that point of desperation remains the same. Utter and complete darkness and isolation. Empty, hollow, and for me, unbearable.

Some aren’t so lucky to reach that point, or should I say become conscious they have reached that point, before the grim reaper pays them a visit, snatching their soul from their 3D temple. 

Addiction takes a plethora of lives, this is the sad reality. I have been given the gift of desperation early in my life- to journey home to unconditional love, or what I like to call it, Heaven on Earth.

My story still baffles me, every day, to this day. The disease continues to pull me back and forth in and out of delusion. Delusion that I can use again, the delusion that I can use like other people, the delusion the I can do whatever I want, when I want. My entitlement, my "right" to judge others. The list goes on and on. Every day I pray and meditate- asking God to keep me sober for another 24 hours, and that God gives me the knowledge of (his/her) will for me and the power to carry that out. That’s it. Nothing more, nothing less. 

Writing about my journey, especially up to the point of desperation, is really important to me. My disease begs me to forget how horrible it really got. It coaxes me into believing my fantasies that did serve me when I was heavily using- keeping me from coming to, and accepting the truth that I had lost my mind. Losing your mind is an intense experience the drug induces psychosis and manic state felt like pure bliss and ecstasy- and that still baffles me. How good it all felt, until reality slapped knocked me down…hard. And then, it was literally, HELL, and when I came to, I realized I had been living in hell all along. 

Return To Energizer

Knowing When To Walk Away

"When one door closes another one opens. If you are too focused on the one that closed, you may never get to walk through the one thats sitting there wide open."

Forever Alone

 

Forever alone
  cannot be held down
    my spirit soars
     I'll never be found

             by that one true match                  
               that will perfectly pair
                perhaps he exists
                  but will he
                     dare...catch

                                       
                  my free flying soul
                     its always changing
                         it'll never be grounded
                              it cannot be tamed

                                enough to co exists
                                 to fit societies vision
                                  of that one perfect match
                                   but I don't care because I'm in this
     

                                                   for me
                                                     my life
                                                      my dimension
                                                         my freedom.

I am.
Forever.


                                                                                                                   alone.

New Artist On The Rise: RABBI GABE

Here we have a chill ten minute intro to

Rabbi Gabe Meat and Dairy Mixxx

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1. Sleepyhead (Rabbi Gabe Remix) - Passion Pit 

2. Anticipate (Netsky Remix) - Skream

3. Rude Boy (TC Remix) - Rihanna 

4. Flourescence - Mimosa 

5. Starry Eyed (Minnesota Remix) - Ellie Goulding 

6. No Scrubs - TLC (Yeahhh dog)

7. Moving With You - Netsky 

8. Who Is Rabbi Gabe? - Rabbi Gabe 

This is the unique sound of Rabbi Gabe a rising new artist coming from San Antonio Texas, but currently living in Portland attending Reed University. The Rabbi has a diverse array of musical background- he plays the guitar &&&& piano too (OMFG) even before he started creating electronic brilliance. Like Low Wobbles, trippy sounds, and taste of ***GRIMY GOODNESS???***  follow RABBI GABE on sound clowd, download &&& share his badass shit!!!



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His music is slightly trippy but the bass has the most perfect amount of stabilizing effect. I would compare is unique sound style to my boy NiTGRiT from SAN JOSE, CA REPRESENT!

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